So

I have lost hope to do anything about my weight for now, because I'm in such a bad state psychologically. I am taking the state of mind / sul as priority.

and there are too many things that I need to do.

I'm still same 60,5 (was yesterday).

I will try the cleansing thing and that would be it.

and will try to eat bit healthier food and contain myself in the evenings. So anxious in the evenings that I can't go to sleep. So eat till I have this fake feeling of calmness.

What can replace that anxious munching? Perhaps tea? No, I don't think so.